Have you ever thought to yourself – What the hell am I doing? Where the hell am I going?Who in cow’s milks name am I?
Sisters, let me tell you. I feel like this on the DAILY. Seriously, on the daily.
I can honestly say that I don’t know exactly what I’m doing in my career, in my relationship, in my passions and dreams and everywhere in between.
Sometimes I go to the grocery store and get frustrated because I don’t know the difference between whole grain and multigrain bread, ya’ll. And don’t even get my started about taxes.
Saving, investing, budgeting, keeping up with friends, loving on our loved ones, sharing our feelings – I mean seriously, who teaches us how to do these things?
I cannot emphasize enough that most times, I don’t know what I’m doing.
I used to struggle with this reality, and often still do.
I feel like I should know what I’m doing. Like I should know what I want out of my job. Like I should know exactly what my life’s purpose is. Like I should know how to cook breakfast for my man without burning the potatoes and severely under cooking the bacon (true story, bro).
(insert deep inhale here)
Like I should be doing something more “productive” than binge watching 90 Day Fiancé on a Friday evening. Like I should be able to buy a new outfit, some pumps, and some makeup without going way over budget and subsequently, having to eat beans and rice for the rest of the week.
The list of “shoulds” go on and on and I for one am fed up. I’m tired of feeling guilty about not knowing all of the things I feel I “should” know.
The truth is, there’s nothing wrong with not knowing what the heck you’re doing or where you’re going in any given moment. It’s completely normal, and despite what it may seem like on social media, nobody truly has everything figured out.
We’re all figuring things out as we go and learning things along the way.
As long as we’re learning, we’re growing, and as long as we’re growing, we’re moving forward.
Sis, when you’re feeling frustrated, discouraged, or otherwise unpleasant about where you are in life, these truths can help. I’m literally repeating these to myself as I write this because the Lord knows I need to chill.
I trust myself on my life’s journey.
I am smart, adaptive, and capable.
I trust myself to be able to learn what I need to do what I need to do.
I trust God to lead me on this journey. I don’t have to do this alone.
I’m going to love myself, no matter what.
I may not know what I’m doing right now, but that’s all good. This is a normal part of my journey. I can’t wait to see what beautiful things come out of this chapter of my life.
Cheers to continuing to find our way my beautiful sisters. Comment below and let me know if anything in particular resonated with you!